01:02 am - i'm a mess, i'm a wreck.
shit. i'm scared now. i don't go to a fall out boy show to SIT DOWN. i don't even care that it's this huge stadium but I don't PAY to go to SHOWS to SIT DOWN. this part of the whole ordeal apparently went right over my head. damn it.
i don't even know right now.
i don't want to be the depressed kid that everyone feels like they should pity. i've been so good lately. really fucking good. i've been happy and positive and doing stuff. i don't want to be stupid anymore. thisissohard. i don't even know what 'it' is that is hard but it sure as hell is. i hate when people ask eachother if 'they are okay?' that isn't going to help anyone.
and it's always the stupidest things with me. isn't it?
string some words together and send them my way.
i just think we should fall in love.
i don't even know right now.
i don't want to be the depressed kid that everyone feels like they should pity. i've been so good lately. really fucking good. i've been happy and positive and doing stuff. i don't want to be stupid anymore. thisissohard. i don't even know what 'it' is that is hard but it sure as hell is. i hate when people ask eachother if 'they are okay?' that isn't going to help anyone.
and it's always the stupidest things with me. isn't it?
string some words together and send them my way.
i just think we should fall in love.
mcs
apathetic